What is my blog all about?
I started to write every morning as soon as I woke up as an exercise in discipline. Having read the book, The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron, I was a fan of Morning Pages. Julia taught us to get a notepad and at the same time every morning, to just write. Pen on paper, stream of conscious. Write whatever comes to mind. After writing five or six pages, throw them away. It is a way to clear the mind to allow creativity to flow. The idea is to flush out negative blocks. I tried that for a few days when I first read the book but had too much trouble throwing out the pages. I also didn’t like having some of the things I thought of down in writing. So, I quit doing them.
But, after I was fired from Applied Medical, I decided I wanted to be a writer. I decided in order to do that, I needed to write. This is when I started my daily writing. It is my own version of Morning Pages. I have done so everyday since I started. (I do confess to missing a day here and there, but no more that 2 or 3.) Around the same time, I started writing, I decided to write a blog daily. This was intended as a discipline of writing publicly and daily. This blog, as any blog, is intended to let people know what I think. What interests me. It is a vehicle to help me find out if people would like to know who I am. Well, that is what I thought at first. But what it ended up being is a way for me to release. To throw ideas against the wall to see if anything sticks. I purposely did not turn on the comments section because I really wasn’t looking for feedback. When I want feedback, I will start a new blog. When I do that, I will retire Heresyman. I wonder if anyone would notice?
It is a new life for me.
As Bill Murray’s character, Phil Connors, said in the movie Groundhog Day: I’m not going to live by their rules anymore. Or from the movie Network: I’m mad as hell, and I’m not going to take it anymore! Now that I’ve come this far, where do I go from here?
Acceptance is really all I need. Accept me as I am if you are a friend. To be a friend acceptance is a must. Something along that line. A new meme to launch. Tolerance is only a small step toward acceptance. In fact, it is often a block. I don’t believe in tolerance. God gave you two ears and one mouth for a reason. Listen twice as much as you talk.
Listening is an input. Talking is an output. Your tongue will get you in trouble, your ears won’t. Listen! Be like Johnny 5… need more input!!! I don’t need to be a know-it-all, but I do want to know it all!
Learning is life. Lifetime learning imperative. You must listen. You must Decide.
Are we stuck in a time loop of some sort? Are we living a false life in The Matrix? Which pill would you take, red or blue? One pill makes you larger and one pill makes you small. The pills your mother gives you don’t do anything at all. Go ask Alice!